nine; A year older and yet I am just as helpless as I ever was.

[onlyapparate]

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Another tragedy and I... I did what I could but... when they started casting killing curses, I... froze up. In all these years, I haven't changed at all, have I? How is it that I am still so naïve?
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I'll be in the hospital until further notice. It's going to take a group effort to keep Yukimi in his room. If he tears open his wound again, it's only going to make things worse. [strikes hackable to friends] Although I haven't been here long enough to know the victims of the attack personally, my heart goes out to their family and friends. Although losing a loved one can sometimes seem unbearable, it's important to keep moving forward and living for their sake.

To my students, I'm afraid I won't have time to correct your assignments quite yet, so if you haven't handed them in, feel free to do so. You have until the end of the month. I'll likely be heading back to Hogwarts once this is over to do what I can for those students who are unable to return home, so sending it by owl is fine.

[Hackable to staff, though by mistake]
What happened was unforgivable. I know the casualties were minimal all things considered, but...! There's no reason why anyone should have had to die in the first place! I should have done more.... I failed again.

Comments

[hadmyshare.livejournal.com]

So y're in the hospital wing too... ...Are y' feeling all righ'?

Y' take y'r time on y'r gradin', profess'r. Goodness knows gettin' better's more import'nt righ' now.

((If Thobari would like something to make him feel better, Tia's been bakin' stuff (http://hadmyshare.livejournal.com/2879.html) for those folks that got hurt in the attack. ♥ :3))

[onlyapparate]

I'm fine, just a few scratches. Actually, I'll be staying here to keep an eye on Professor Yukimi. He and I go way back, so staying by his side is the least I can do.

((Thobari might actually offer to help Tiana bake, though. He's just welling over with the urge to help everyone~ &hearts))

[hadmyshare.livejournal.com]

I see...is he doin' all righ'?

((X3 Hee, well, Tia would appreciate the help. ♥))

[onlyapparate]

He lost his arm, by the looks of it. There was no saving it.

He's taking it exceedingly well, though. I think I'd be more at ease if he stopped insisting that he's fine. Honestly... how can he say he's fine after worrying us all?

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[n0blesse-oblige.livejournal.com]

Thobari.. you did what you could. Kallen is feeling the same way as you are. Think about how many lives you saved in that cafeteria.

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[onlyapparate]

I know, but... If I'd've done more, perhaps...! Maybe...

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[n0blesse-oblige.livejournal.com]

You cannot beat yourself up about this. It's ok to remember those we lost but you cannot dwell on it forever or it will eat you inside...

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[onlyapparate]

I know. I know that, I just... can't believe it happened again. I need to be more prepared next time.

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[itscalled-faith.livejournal.com]

You are... anything but naïve, Thobari.

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[onlyapparate]

I know many who would say otherwise.

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[itscalled-faith.livejournal.com]

I am not one of them.

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[onlyapparate]

Why not? Our side suffered losses, theirs did not. If I had acted faster...

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[genki-ni-yuuki.livejournal.com]

I'm hoping that we can take him home soon. I don't want him going back to the castle yet.

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[onlyapparate]

Home? So you two are living together? I certainly wouldn't trust him own right now... I think he still has a lot more resting to do, personally.

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[genki-ni-yuuki.livejournal.com]

What?! No! I mean, you know, to his home and watch him there. Sleeping on the sofa and putting a bell on him if he moves.

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[onlyapparate]

In that case, you wouldn't mind if I come to visit? I want to help out at Hogwarts as much as I can, but I'll probably get some free time eventually. I'm worried he's gonna pretend he's doing fine when really he's in pain...

You're gonna bell him like a cat? I guess that really is the only way to get him to sit still, isn't it?

[sticktokicks.livejournal.com]

No need to apologize over homework, I'm sure that's the last thing anyone's worried about right now.

[onlyapparate]

I'd certainly hope so! After all that, everyone's families are probably worried sick. I'm glad you students were given the chance to return home.

[sticktokicks.livejournal.com]

Yeah...nothing would get done if we were in school anyway, everyone's so distracted, or in the hospital. I bet the teachers need a break just as bad.

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[zealotringly.livejournal.com]

Thobari...

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[onlyapparate]

It's... a bit of a sore subject.

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[zealotringly.livejournal.com]

Then can I make a selfish request?

[yukimi-mama.livejournal.com]

I wish you guys wouldn't talk about me like I don't know what you're planning.

[onlyapparate]

Whether we say it or not, it's what would happen, wouldn't it?

[yukimi-mama.livejournal.com]

Don't I get a say in what happens to me?