seventeen; I REMEMBERED WHO "RAPHAEL" WAS

[onlyapparate]

Well, summer is well underway and already I'm back at Hogwarts. The kittens Castiel found are indeed a bit... lively. Mine won't stop biting me; I had to tear off a bit of an old robe and give it to him to nibble on, but it looks it's going to take a while to train this out of him. And I don't know the first thing about cats, really. How do you train cats?

I'm actually a little worried that he might not get along well with Anna, my owl. She's possessive of me enough already, if I take a kitten home, she might attack. Am I that bad with animals? If that happens... I suppose I'm going to have to keep them separated.

[super-ultra-private to Castiel]
Castiel. Raphael was... Am I remembering this correctly? Didn't you say Raphael was the name of the brother who killed you? Why would you name a cat after him!? And why would you give him to me!??

Is there something you aren't telling me? We need to talk about this! Now that I'm in Hogwarts, I'd like to deal with this in person, if possible.
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[onlyapparate]

We both know your family was more than that, Castiel. Raphael, I get. Who was Anna to you?

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[itscalled-faith.livejournal.com]

[oh man, Thobari, you're walking a tight, tight rope. Castiel still hasn't forgotten about how your brought up what had been done in the Forest.]

Why do you want to know?

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[onlyapparate]

Because. You look different when I say her name, or when you see my owl.

I want to understand why.

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[itscalled-faith.livejournal.com]

[Silence. But it kind of looks like Castiel is considering.]

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[onlyapparate]

[ Patient silence. Castiel will tell him if he wants to. Or he'll change the subject. Or he'll disappear. So Thobari just waits. ]

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[itscalled-faith.livejournal.com]

She was not the first of my siblings to die.

["But she was the first to be slain by my hand."]

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[onlyapparate]

But there's something different about her, isn't there? About her death? [ Or else you wouldn't be mentioning it... ]

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[itscalled-faith.livejournal.com]

It was my task to return her home.

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[onlyapparate]

[ Nods. If Castiel wants to say more, he will. If not... they can move on from this. ]

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[itscalled-faith.livejournal.com]

I killed her.

[Castiel's gaze hardens. But he winds up just looking really guilty.]

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[onlyapparate]

[ Thobari's gaze steels, but it's not in anger; it's in understanding. He knows that look. He's seen it in himself as well. To carry it with him for so many years... ]

I see.

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[itscalled-faith.livejournal.com]

[well... Castiel decides that's enough sharing. Off he goes.]






[He didn't explain why he was mad, btw :'D]

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[onlyapparate]

C-Castiel?

[ Watch Thobari misinterpret this and think that Cas never wants to see Anna again. ]

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[itscalled-faith.livejournal.com]

[Whoops.]