eighteen; life is not dandy
Jul. 10th, 2010 03:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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Kallen, I... Are you alright? You left in such a hurry that I... Did I do something wrong?
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Raphael's demeanor has improved a bit. I think it has to do with the fact that I've so far protected him from Anna.I don't know what that says about me, of course, protecting Castiel's killer from what sounds like the only woman he ever cared about... I still don't think I should take him home as he is; it's taken him long enough to adjust to my office and my chambers; I don't think a kitten his age should be moved around quite so much.
As for Anna, she seems very restless lately. I've been sending her out on a lot of miscellaneous errands to get her out of my office, but insofar it hasn't worked much. She's always squawking at Raphael (when she isn't trying to attack him) and quite honestly, it's starting to worry me. And since sending her to the Owlry isn't an option, well...
Is anyone good with pets? Spencer's busy, and not many people are left in the castle, so... Castiel? You named them, right? Would it be too soon to ask for your assistance?
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Kallen, I... Are you alright? You left in such a hurry that I... Did I do something wrong?
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Raphael's demeanor has improved a bit. I think it has to do with the fact that I've so far protected him from Anna.
As for Anna, she seems very restless lately. I've been sending her out on a lot of miscellaneous errands to get her out of my office, but insofar it hasn't worked much. She's always squawking at Raphael (when she isn't trying to attack him) and quite honestly, it's starting to worry me. And since sending her to the Owlry isn't an option, well...
Is anyone good with pets? Spencer's busy, and not many people are left in the castle, so... Castiel? You named them, right? Would it be too soon to ask for your assistance?
[[ strikes not hackable. Also, my internet has been really unreliable lately, so expect sporadic replies :< ]]
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Date: 2010-07-10 07:03 am (UTC)[private]
Date: 2010-07-10 07:08 am (UTC)[private]
Date: 2010-07-10 07:13 am (UTC)You must remind your friend I am not a dark wizard.
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Date: 2010-07-10 07:17 am (UTC)You didn't answer my question! Is it about Anna or not?
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Date: 2010-07-10 07:22 am (UTC)[ANNA COMES LATER SIT DOWN.]
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Date: 2010-07-10 07:24 am (UTC)Are you serious? How could he even think that? That's ridiculous! You, of all people!
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Date: 2010-07-10 07:27 am (UTC)Or I will deal with them.
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Date: 2010-07-10 07:30 am (UTC)[ How would he even "deal with them"? Castiel wouldn't hurt them, at least. ]
I'll see if I can get them to leave you alone, but I can't guarantee anything. Spencer isn't the kind of man who changes his mind easily...
Why are they bothering you in the first place?
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Date: 2010-07-10 07:32 am (UTC)[Thobari, you are like the only person in existence to know so much about his life. About what he knows. And Castiel doesn't even really like you knowing, let alone someone he doesn't trust.]
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Date: 2010-07-10 07:37 am (UTC)[ And that tells him enough, at least. Spencer and Kate were trying to dig up Castiel's past; the fact that Castiel is so cryptic about it probably feeding some paranoid theory Spencer must have thought up... Regardless of the reason; a man's past is his own. Thobari knows all about keeping secrets. If it happened to him... he'd definitely be angry. ]
They have no right to ask anything of you, Castiel. If Spencer is trying to dig up your past, I'll tell him to stop. Personally.
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Date: 2010-07-10 07:40 am (UTC)[private]
Date: 2010-07-10 07:48 am (UTC)Then again, knowing him, it's probably too late now. It's not going to be easy to get him to change his mind, but I'll try my hardest.
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Date: 2010-07-11 02:10 pm (UTC)Now, I am. [Fine she means. Sorry Thobari, you're talking to MISS INDEPENDENT, not cute!girlfriend.]
It's hard for me to believe that you don't know what you did.
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Date: 2010-07-11 10:01 pm (UTC)I never meant to offend you. It was a weak moment for me, and I have no excuse for it.
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Date: 2010-07-11 11:18 pm (UTC)Re: filtered;
Date: 2010-07-11 11:47 pm (UTC)[ cue beating himself up. all Thobari can think is 'I wasn't strong enough for you, obviously.' ]
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Date: 2010-07-11 11:57 pm (UTC)If you didn't want to be with me, you could have just said so. If my age was really that big of a deal to you...
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Date: 2010-07-12 12:09 am (UTC)I just... I was weak and that weakness hurt you. I can't apologize enough; even if I didn't mean what I did.
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Date: 2010-07-12 12:22 am (UTC)Re: filtered;
Date: 2010-07-12 12:31 am (UTC)It was stupid. Pointless. I spaced out and there's no excuse for it.
I'm sorry.
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Date: 2010-07-12 12:32 am (UTC)Re: filtered;
Date: 2010-07-12 12:48 am (UTC)I know. It meant nothing to me, but it meant the world to you. I knew that, and that's why it's unforgivable. I'm sorry.
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Date: 2010-07-12 12:53 am (UTC)My father cheated on my mother while they were still together. He divorced her and then married the woman who is my step mother. You know what he did?
He looked at another woman in my mother's presence, just like you.
Don't apologize anymore. I've already heard it. Point is, you knew and you still did it.
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Date: 2010-07-12 01:04 am (UTC)I know now, in retrospect. At the time, I wasn't thinking.
That's all I can apologize for, Kallen. I made a mistake.
Just know that I wouldn't do that, Kallen. Things like that, that kind of betrayal... Something like that does nothing but hurt and take defile everything that love stands for. It's inexcusable.
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