nineteen; [voice] in which life is not excellent and my cat chews through my fingers.

[onlyapparate]

[ Thobari's room sounds awfully quiet (Anna is out). Except maybe for a tiny meowing sound in the background. Raphael has taken to consoling him by chewing on his fingers. Thobari doesn't even seem to care. ]

I... I don't understand. I tried, really I did, but... This is just like back then. There are no second chances; only the decisions we make and I... made the wrong one once again. I wasn't strong enough. I'll never be strong enough.

...She'll be happier without me. It's understandable, of course. I knew about it, and yet... I couldn't stop myself. I should have known that I'm still so weak... I can't save lives, I can't save relationships; I can't save anyone.

Times like these make me wonder why I keep trying so hard.

[[Okay, so this post is 100% unhackable to Kallen and everyone else, basically. For Yukimi, Spencer and Kate, it's like 40% hackable, so you might hear some stuff about him being weak and whatnot. For Maron, this is 90% hackable (everything but the strikes) and for Cas, yeah, it's 100%.]]

Comments

[genki-ni-yuuki.livejournal.com]

Well don't you think that you're a lowlife. Thobari, you're the nicest man I know and the sweetest boyfriend too.

[onlyapparate]

[ sniffle. ]

Thank you, Maron. That means a lot to me.

[genki-ni-yuuki.livejournal.com]

I'll floo over in a few minutes, then we can have some tea.

[onlyapparate]

Okay. I'll be here.