onlyapparate | nineteen; [voice] in which life is not excellent and my cat chews through my fingers.

[ Thobari's room sounds awfully quiet (Anna is out). Except maybe for a tiny meowing sound in the background. Raphael has taken to consoling him by chewing on his fingers. Thobari doesn't even seem to care. ]

I... I don't understand. I tried, really I did, but... ~~This is just like back then. There are no second chances; only the decisions we make and I... made the wrong one once again.~~ I wasn't strong enough. I'll never be strong enough.

...She'll be happier without me. It's understandable, of course. I knew about it, and yet... I couldn't stop myself. I should have known that I'm still so weak... I can't save lives, I can't save relationships; I can't save anyone.

Times like these make me wonder why I keep trying so hard.

[[Okay, so this post is 100% unhackable to Kallen and everyone else, basically. For Yukimi, Spencer and Kate, it's like 40% hackable, so you might hear some stuff about him being weak and whatnot. For Maron, this is 90% hackable (everything but the strikes) and for Cas, yeah, it's 100%.]]