nineteen; [voice] in which life is not excellent and my cat chews through my fingers.

[onlyapparate]

[ Thobari's room sounds awfully quiet (Anna is out). Except maybe for a tiny meowing sound in the background. Raphael has taken to consoling him by chewing on his fingers. Thobari doesn't even seem to care. ]

I... I don't understand. I tried, really I did, but... This is just like back then. There are no second chances; only the decisions we make and I... made the wrong one once again. I wasn't strong enough. I'll never be strong enough.

...She'll be happier without me. It's understandable, of course. I knew about it, and yet... I couldn't stop myself. I should have known that I'm still so weak... I can't save lives, I can't save relationships; I can't save anyone.

Times like these make me wonder why I keep trying so hard.

[[Okay, so this post is 100% unhackable to Kallen and everyone else, basically. For Yukimi, Spencer and Kate, it's like 40% hackable, so you might hear some stuff about him being weak and whatnot. For Maron, this is 90% hackable (everything but the strikes) and for Cas, yeah, it's 100%.]]

Comments

Re: Private

[onlyapparate]

That's right, you haven't met many of the other teachers yet, have you? The retreat's coming up soon, that should be good.

Sure thing! Hopefully it'll be soon, but after this whole confusion with Kallen is solved.

Re: Private

[noheatnikki.livejournal.com]

Yes, I've only met a few teachers, and some more through their journals, but not many. I've been in the States for so long that I've pretty much lost touch with all of my old friends from this side of the pond. I'd like to meet some new people.

Re: Private

[onlyapparate]

It'll be a lot of fun, I hope! I haven't been to one yet, but I hear last year's was... lively, to say the least.